Posts by Tony Hughes

Dandelions

When I see dandelions it puts me in mind of many things, as well as a feeling of reflection. These are just a few……… I see it move in slow motion, gently, quietly, peacefully. Like the internal feeling I hope to have one day when I have come to terms never knowing my not-born children.…

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On Ritual……

One of the regular reminders of my not having had children centres around ritual. Societies, cultures, communities and individuals function through customs of one sort or another. In our society I see that raising children dictates so much. By necessity. Organising life around the school day, holidays, social activities, financial considerations, even where one might…

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The Moment Reality Hits

Childless by Circumstance

I discovered I was grieving my not-born children in August 2014. Only then did I realise what the profound, yet indescribable pain was that I’d been feeling for a long time. The kind that has you prostrate on your kitchen floor, your arms wrapped round your empty abdomen, rocking back and forth crying uncontrollably and…

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Somethings got to give…hasn’t it??

I didn’t know it was grief when it started to hit me. Why would I? No living person I knew had recently passed away. Not being inclined to social media nor one to spend much time ‘Google-ing’ I wasn’t searching for an explanation for my feeling of unrelenting deep sadness. But I did glance at…

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